I Don't Measure Up!

I'm feeling a little manic at the moment. I spent a lot of time re-vamping my blog. I feel all empowered and fresh, and yes, a little beautiful. And, I have all of these ideas of what I want to say here. Unfortunately, I'm getting them all from other fabulous ladies in the blog world. It goes like this:

1. I read a fabulous, funny, insightful post.
2. I comment on said post, always being genuinely complimentary, then sharing how I concur...or have learned...or will try to do better.
3. Which leads to, "hmmmmm, maybe I should write that revelation on my blog?"
4. Which leads to guilt over the stealing of ideas...so much so, that I even went so far as to look it up. Apparently you can "steal words" but you can't "steal ideas."

Which doesn't do much for my confidence in my creativity. So, in the end, I just.do.nothing. It's all so exhausting, really. I think I'm trying to come up with something relevant to add out there. And, all I get is crickets...(literally, it's quiet and the crickets from my kids' gecko feeder are driving me nuts!)

I should be content in the fact that others have my struggles. Revel that others share my enthusiasms. And, yes, even sometimes, I'll find another that has a little bit of my crazy. But, we all want to be a little special, right?

I think I'm freaking out a little because I've had a few commenters lately that checked me out after my commenting on their blogs. What if they read my post say, "hey! That was MY idea!" Or even worse, what if they think they could have said it better? Or funnier? I don't think I could handle the unknown rejection I've built up in my mind. So, again, I.do.nothing. I've quit before I've begun.

Maybe I'll just write and write, and don't care if they see it. And, if they do, imitation is the best form of flattery, right? Or maybe I'll just write about writing...yeah...that's original.